Thursday, February 16, 2012

More photos!

I call this "through the years....





This one is called "Headboard I made for the boys - Valentines.... plus the Teddy






Monday, February 13, 2012

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

It is the little things

Last night I went into my son's room while he was sleeping to check on him one more time before I went to bed.  I ususally give the boys one more kiss while they are sleeping.  As I left the dark room that didn't have a night light on or any music on.... I had a moment.   And then I had to stop and think...

When he first came to us, age 2, he would be placed in his crib and we would sing and rock him to sleep, but he would not go to sleep.  He stayed awake, part of what he had learn in the orphanage and he was a baby with an on switch./ fear (?).. he took hours to go to sleep.  Early childhood told us to leave him alone and he would go to sleep.. :( 

Then he was 5 and we had attachment issues or so we thought.  I started laying with him until he would fall asleep.  I would be with him for hours.... sometimes two hours and sometime as quickly as an half hour.  It all depended on his day however, he really could not communicate this too me.

By 7, we gave up and just brought him into our room to sleep.  He slept at my side of the bed and when he awoke I would be right there for him.  His brother thought this was great and quickly joined the camp out in our room.  They stayed for over a year in our bedroom.  Two boys felt better sleeping on our floor and feeling safe and happy.  Josh even wonder where his wife and kids would sleep.:)

By 9, we moved Brandon and his brother into a sleeping room.  They shared a room just for sleep,  there were no toys or personal stuff.  Just the books they read at night, their radio alarm clocks and a night light to share.  They slept in that room and when they would complain about each other we would just say, well you have your own room.  This kept them together until they were ready.

He will be turning 11 in March, he is now sleeping in his own room, in his own bed and without a night light or noises.  He is sleeping... still have waking up issues (another post) but less and less.  He is very proud of himself and so am I.  He is growing up.... makes me kind of sad and happy.  Yes, Josh likes sleeping in his own room with his own stuff... (but still has a night light) :)

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Life goes on

It seems so long ago that my mom passed, and yet it was only one week ago today.   We have had the funeral and sent the thank yous and now life goes on.  Today is really the first day that I can sit alone and think of the past week.  I cry and get sad and then it is like she is still here. 
My mom and I used to talk on the phone all the time.  I would give her an update of my boys and all that has been happening.  I lost that phone privileged last summer when she no longer wanted to talk.  She didn't have the energy and she just got tired of saying... I am sitting around in pain.  I could call once in awhile and update but it wasn't the same.  I realized over the past week she had stop looking at my emails since October, she had no strengthed to go to the computer room and open up her mail.  Was it because she had no physical strength or mental strength I don't know.
But from the holidays on, she looked tired and worn out, sad and calm.  She was ready to go to the Lord.  She had no more strength in this world.  The person who is suffering now the most is my dad.  He took great care of her during her illness always believing she would get better.  I think somewhere I knew in my heart it wasn't going to be.  I just didn't know when it would happen.  I can honestly say she did go peacefully and really is in a better place.  I think someone gave us a long time to say goodbye.  So, I hope whoever reads this, make sure you let the ones around you know how much you care and really appreciate them.

After a long struggled ..Mom passed peacefully and will be dearly missed


Kathryn "Mary Kay" M. Lindsay
KATHRYN “MARY KAY” M. LINDSAY
(NEE: BISHOP)
RACINE

Surrounded by her loving family, Kathryn “Mary Kay” M. Lindsay, passed away Wednesday, January 25, 2012, at Wheaton-Franciscan All Saints Medical Center. She was born in Monmouth, IL, September 1, 1934, daughter of the late William J. and Mary E. (Nee: Pearson) Bishop.

On June 9, 1956 in Monmouth, IL she was united in marriage to Robert E. Lindsay. An avid tennis player, Mary Kay assisted her husband, Bob for over forty years organizing the city tennis programs. She was an excellent seamstress. More than anything, she treasured time spent with her family, and will forever be remembered as a loving and devoted wife, mother, and grandmother. She will be dearly missed.

Survivors include her loving husband of fifty-five years, Bob; her children, Linda (Tom) Groose of Glendale, WI, Laura (Scott) French of Racine, Lisa (Don) Sattler of Poplar Grove, IL, RJ Lindsay of Racine; her eight grandchildren, Matthew and Adam Groose, Jennifer, Rachel, and Samuel French, Brandon and Josh Sattler, Nick Lindsay; brother, Richard (Jeanne) Bishop of Monmouth, IL; sister, Doris Reigel of TX; sister-in-law, Patsy (Jim) Glenn of Aledo, IL; nieces, nephews, other relatives and many dear friends. In addition to her parents she was preceded in death by two sisters and four brothers.

Funeral services will be held Saturday, January 28, 2012, 11:30 A.M. at Trinity United Methodist Church, 3825 Erie Street, with Rev. Rosiland Dryver-Scott officiating. Private interment will follow at Country Haven Cemetery, Caledonia. Relatives and friends may meet with the family Saturday at the church from 9:30 A.M. until time of service at 11:30 A.M. Memorials to the Northside Food Pantry or to the Racine Public Library have been suggested.

A very special thank you to Dr. Michael Mullane and his wonderful staff,
and to Wheaton-Franciscan staff, especially the nurses in oncology
during her last hours for their loving and compassionate care.