So of course you write something as you are in the moment and it is a very big deal and then the poster drops out and you don't hear anymore. This is very frustrating and I realized this is Exactly what I have done many times over. it is easy to do, so if anyone is really reading this blog, please accept my apologies. If you haven't a clue, then there is no worries.
Anyway, as I flutter through time with my children I have realized 2 things. One is that I love them and I really look forward to being with them. When I think I can't get things done and I have some time while they are in school, I am excited. then, I realize I am looking at the clock and waiting for them to come home. then they come home and I am ready for them to go back. I am not sure what that really means but I know when they are out of my site and dealing with the world I miss them. I worry about them and I want the best for them. Secondly, I really want them to be the best that they can be, but I find myself correctly all their mistakes instead of cheering on the good things.
I want them to be perfect, and there is no such thing. I want them to know things that I didn't growing up and how it reflects on them and family. Then I realize I need to make sure they know they are safe. They can be who they want to be. I really want them to be so happy and over the moon and yet that isn't realistic. you don't learn by having things always working out your way. you need to be inconvenienced and frustrated. You will learn that you will live and the people (family) will be by you no matter what. I hope they know that and there are days I think they do and then there are days they think no one cares. This breaks my heart.
Anyway, as I flutter through time with my children I have realized 2 things. One is that I love them and I really look forward to being with them. When I think I can't get things done and I have some time while they are in school, I am excited. then, I realize I am looking at the clock and waiting for them to come home. then they come home and I am ready for them to go back. I am not sure what that really means but I know when they are out of my site and dealing with the world I miss them. I worry about them and I want the best for them. Secondly, I really want them to be the best that they can be, but I find myself correctly all their mistakes instead of cheering on the good things.
I want them to be perfect, and there is no such thing. I want them to know things that I didn't growing up and how it reflects on them and family. Then I realize I need to make sure they know they are safe. They can be who they want to be. I really want them to be so happy and over the moon and yet that isn't realistic. you don't learn by having things always working out your way. you need to be inconvenienced and frustrated. You will learn that you will live and the people (family) will be by you no matter what. I hope they know that and there are days I think they do and then there are days they think no one cares. This breaks my heart.
