Christmas is over but not done. We are now celebrating with all the fun toys the boys received. This keeps our time at home quiet but only for a little bit. Brandon is starting to complain about going back to school and this is really hard. He makes comments that tug at my heart and as you go into this it doesn't seem that bad but I am not there to make that call. Something is happening that he can't wrap himself around to explain. So I will have to make time and just sit with him and find out what is happening when he can explain it better.
Right now he is so overwhelmed with toys and things to do. He can't handle days without purpose. Just to hang and play is lost on him. He needs a routine and direction. So I must make one for him today when he awakes. Right now he is still sleeping... he has a cold and it is affecting him. Which means he is learning how to let his guard down and relax and let mommy take over for him. This is nice, however he still gets quite upset over little things but I am ready to take on the day to help.
Josh has been building his lego's for days. He got the big police station and he is in heaven. I should take a picture and post. I am bad at this, taking photo's and posting them to make the story sound and look better....
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Update on Mom
Well it is good and bad news. The cancer is spreading which isn't good, but they are going to try a different chemo, (which will make her very tired) and hope the tumor will shrink. This is a fast acting chemo that if it doesn't do any good we shall know before the end of January. Apparently when my mom was doing good in late Spring they stop chemo to give her body a rest and more cancer came back faster. A risk you take but it didn't seem such a huge risk at that time.
On another note, my sister just got diagnosed with breast cancer. Crap. Good news is, it was caught early and is stage one and after treatment she will be fine. Lots of test to make sure it is located in one area and has not spread and proper treatment. She is doing great and has a wonderful attitude. This has helped my folks. It has even made my mom seem to perk up and do more so that she will be more available to her. Which is sad that such trauma got my mom going. However, it got her going and worrying about her daughter which I pray will help her.
If you are wondering, yes I get yearly mamograms and have for the past ten years. I do worry but I can't let it creep into my every thought.
On a better note, Josh woke me up this AM at 6:00 because he could not sleep because Santa is coming. He is so excited and nervous. Nervous? I guess anxious and can't wait until the 24th,..... the good part is he is willing to go to bed early so the next day will come. :)
On another note, my sister just got diagnosed with breast cancer. Crap. Good news is, it was caught early and is stage one and after treatment she will be fine. Lots of test to make sure it is located in one area and has not spread and proper treatment. She is doing great and has a wonderful attitude. This has helped my folks. It has even made my mom seem to perk up and do more so that she will be more available to her. Which is sad that such trauma got my mom going. However, it got her going and worrying about her daughter which I pray will help her.
If you are wondering, yes I get yearly mamograms and have for the past ten years. I do worry but I can't let it creep into my every thought.
On a better note, Josh woke me up this AM at 6:00 because he could not sleep because Santa is coming. He is so excited and nervous. Nervous? I guess anxious and can't wait until the 24th,..... the good part is he is willing to go to bed early so the next day will come. :)
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Christmas is coming
Christmas is coming and the boys are getting excited. It really picks up the holiday cheer for me. My mom is not doing well and it is scary. Today she goes to the doctor and finds out what the test results are. Hopefully it isn't anything horrible becasue they said they would call about it so we can only wait and see. However, she is barely getting out of bed and moving. This is not a good sign. So I am hoping that if she gets news that there is no cancer she will start moving and feeling better. It is so hard to tell.
Meanwhile my boys are so excited for Christmas that they can't contain themselves. Brandon is bouncing off the walls and Josh is doing everything Christmas. It is funny to watch. A bit tiring at times but funny still. They can't go to sleep at night and they can't concetrate on homework and they can't think straight. At least I hope this will settle down as soon as Christmas is over. The sad reality is they really aren't getting what they request..... electronics is not what Santa thinks they need this year.
Meanwhile my boys are so excited for Christmas that they can't contain themselves. Brandon is bouncing off the walls and Josh is doing everything Christmas. It is funny to watch. A bit tiring at times but funny still. They can't go to sleep at night and they can't concetrate on homework and they can't think straight. At least I hope this will settle down as soon as Christmas is over. The sad reality is they really aren't getting what they request..... electronics is not what Santa thinks they need this year.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Daily Holiday Life
With Christmas approaching, we get pretty busy around here, like most folks. I look at blogs and I see kids dressed up so fancy and smiling faces it is hard to believe many have lots of struggles just to take the photos. but they do and the kids look wonderful.
We are struggling this Christmas but for other reasons. My mother's health is not well. She is in chronic pain from the radiation or arthritis or chemo in her hip. They don't know what is causing it. So last Thursday they took an X-ray to see what is happening. Luckily we have not recieved a call saying the cancer is back and spreading it will be something else since they don't meet with the doctor until Wed. Meanwhile Mom is taking lots of pain meds and living in la la land. Which is hard to watch your parent be so out of it or sleeping in a bed all day with her pj's on. My dad is getting more depressed and struggling to get the strength to carry on. I live an hour and half away and I cannot see them daily. But I am making an effort to go at least once a week. A very depressing time. The sad part is not knowing what is going to happen. so I would like to have the strength of my brother and believe this is just a painful time for her and things will get better. Chemo can do this... but this is our second round. So I wait and try to look for strength... and guess where I am finding it? In my son.
Yes, my difficult son that challenges me everyday. I see a healthy little guy with so much strength that he so unaware of what he has. He can get out of bed and dress and run and play. He can sit still and complete his homework, or a task of some type. My mother cannot get out of bed. How can this make me happy? Because when he can't get dress, because he won't, I simply remind him of what he is capable of and not get angry and he gets dress. He is getting ready in the morning pretty good. We still have struggles, but I have learn to time them and move on. He can do this at school and I hope he will learn at home.
A child with FAS looks at things differently. The other moring his choice was to get his shoes and coat on for school... and then play with his Santa. He chose to play with Santa. When we left he had his shoes and coat in hand and got into the van. As we pull out, we see the Christmas lights are on the Christmas Tree. Josh jumps out of the van to go and turn them off. Since we are now in the driveway the cold air comes rushing in..... Brandon's response to all this by screaming that Josh made him cold... UHM HOW does Josh make you cold? because he is sitting without his shoes and coat. But it is all Josh's fault because he open the door. I calmly remind him that if he had taken the choice of putting on shoes and coat before playing with Santa he would not be cold. This takes awhile for him to comprehend, because in his mind it is Josh's fault. Sadly it is not, but this is a fine line because I don't want Brandon to feel bad about himself or lower his self esteem, I want him to understand that he is smart and needs to learn how to make better choices. A very fine line.
We are struggling this Christmas but for other reasons. My mother's health is not well. She is in chronic pain from the radiation or arthritis or chemo in her hip. They don't know what is causing it. So last Thursday they took an X-ray to see what is happening. Luckily we have not recieved a call saying the cancer is back and spreading it will be something else since they don't meet with the doctor until Wed. Meanwhile Mom is taking lots of pain meds and living in la la land. Which is hard to watch your parent be so out of it or sleeping in a bed all day with her pj's on. My dad is getting more depressed and struggling to get the strength to carry on. I live an hour and half away and I cannot see them daily. But I am making an effort to go at least once a week. A very depressing time. The sad part is not knowing what is going to happen. so I would like to have the strength of my brother and believe this is just a painful time for her and things will get better. Chemo can do this... but this is our second round. So I wait and try to look for strength... and guess where I am finding it? In my son.
Yes, my difficult son that challenges me everyday. I see a healthy little guy with so much strength that he so unaware of what he has. He can get out of bed and dress and run and play. He can sit still and complete his homework, or a task of some type. My mother cannot get out of bed. How can this make me happy? Because when he can't get dress, because he won't, I simply remind him of what he is capable of and not get angry and he gets dress. He is getting ready in the morning pretty good. We still have struggles, but I have learn to time them and move on. He can do this at school and I hope he will learn at home.
A child with FAS looks at things differently. The other moring his choice was to get his shoes and coat on for school... and then play with his Santa. He chose to play with Santa. When we left he had his shoes and coat in hand and got into the van. As we pull out, we see the Christmas lights are on the Christmas Tree. Josh jumps out of the van to go and turn them off. Since we are now in the driveway the cold air comes rushing in..... Brandon's response to all this by screaming that Josh made him cold... UHM HOW does Josh make you cold? because he is sitting without his shoes and coat. But it is all Josh's fault because he open the door. I calmly remind him that if he had taken the choice of putting on shoes and coat before playing with Santa he would not be cold. This takes awhile for him to comprehend, because in his mind it is Josh's fault. Sadly it is not, but this is a fine line because I don't want Brandon to feel bad about himself or lower his self esteem, I want him to understand that he is smart and needs to learn how to make better choices. A very fine line.
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