Life goes on

It seems so long ago that my mom passed, and yet it was only one week ago today.   We have had the funeral and sent the thank yous and now life goes on.  Today is really the first day that I can sit alone and think of the past week.  I cry and get sad and then it is like she is still here. 
My mom and I used to talk on the phone all the time.  I would give her an update of my boys and all that has been happening.  I lost that phone privileged last summer when she no longer wanted to talk.  She didn't have the energy and she just got tired of saying... I am sitting around in pain.  I could call once in awhile and update but it wasn't the same.  I realized over the past week she had stop looking at my emails since October, she had no strengthed to go to the computer room and open up her mail.  Was it because she had no physical strength or mental strength I don't know.
But from the holidays on, she looked tired and worn out, sad and calm.  She was ready to go to the Lord.  She had no more strength in this world.  The person who is suffering now the most is my dad.  He took great care of her during her illness always believing she would get better.  I think somewhere I knew in my heart it wasn't going to be.  I just didn't know when it would happen.  I can honestly say she did go peacefully and really is in a better place.  I think someone gave us a long time to say goodbye.  So, I hope whoever reads this, make sure you let the ones around you know how much you care and really appreciate them.