This is scary and sad but reality. It is with a heavy heart you realize at some point how confused lost your child really is. As a parent you can't parent them like you think you should. You love them and you want what is best for them all the time but they don't get that. They start to see you as using prompts and reminders to get through the day as negative stuff and bad. You no longer have a voice in their mind. They will be polite to others and they will show respect and understanding but when they come home they collapse and become a person you can't reach or talk to anymore. so you have to turn your heart to stone to get through the day and no longer show any feelings because at this point they don't have it themselves.
Then you wonder will it ever help? Do you really reach a child that has FASD and their emotional ability is so low and not maturing? Can they ever understand what can happen when they take their daily frustrations out on you? As a human you can only have your heart stomped on so many times before you become numb to something. But as this child is constantly stomping on my heart and making me so sad and frustrated I still want to help him. I still want what is best for him. so what do I have to do? I think I have to turn OFF my heart and turn ON my head and move in a zone. I don't want to parent this way at all. The emotional highs and lows can no longer happen with this child. However, to effectively parent a child with FASD this is what you have to do.
You have to remove your emotions and function through the day with no emotion. It doesn't feel like being a parent it feels like a drill sergeant or someone who does not care about this individual but this is how to parent him right now. He is confused and he is learning he is different. He is trying to cope and part of that coping is taking it out on you. However, you will always have little fires to put out with this child as you go in circles that you can't keep it up anymore. So you have to stop and live in his world. There can be no emotion just the black and white.
Do you still love him? Yes you do but now it is not with your heart it is with your mind. This is the way you have to be. Tough decisions are lurking and you need to be strong to make the right choices for the child. Hopefully and I pray there is so much love that it will be understood by him before it is too late. I will always love him no matter what. If this does not make sense to anyone then they have not dealt and lived with a child with FASD.
Then you wonder will it ever help? Do you really reach a child that has FASD and their emotional ability is so low and not maturing? Can they ever understand what can happen when they take their daily frustrations out on you? As a human you can only have your heart stomped on so many times before you become numb to something. But as this child is constantly stomping on my heart and making me so sad and frustrated I still want to help him. I still want what is best for him. so what do I have to do? I think I have to turn OFF my heart and turn ON my head and move in a zone. I don't want to parent this way at all. The emotional highs and lows can no longer happen with this child. However, to effectively parent a child with FASD this is what you have to do.
You have to remove your emotions and function through the day with no emotion. It doesn't feel like being a parent it feels like a drill sergeant or someone who does not care about this individual but this is how to parent him right now. He is confused and he is learning he is different. He is trying to cope and part of that coping is taking it out on you. However, you will always have little fires to put out with this child as you go in circles that you can't keep it up anymore. So you have to stop and live in his world. There can be no emotion just the black and white.
Do you still love him? Yes you do but now it is not with your heart it is with your mind. This is the way you have to be. Tough decisions are lurking and you need to be strong to make the right choices for the child. Hopefully and I pray there is so much love that it will be understood by him before it is too late. I will always love him no matter what. If this does not make sense to anyone then they have not dealt and lived with a child with FASD.
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